I feel like i'm good at listening to others and giving advice. I can also take the knowledge i've learned from school, books, experiences, etc to give advice to other people. I've been approached on innumerable occasions from my friends seeking advice. I had a friend tell me that he likes talking to me because i maintain a neutral position and can offer an alternative, unbiased perspective. For the most part, i can get people to see things in a way that they hadn't thought of before.
Ultimately, though, i need to help myself to help other people. To live life as a role model. To teach and lead by example. To "be the change i want to see in the world."
It all starts and ends with me. I have to find a way to start living my most authentic self. I don't even really know what that fully entails -- but i know that there's a gap between who i want to be and who i am on a daily basis. If i can't be real to myself then how am i supposed to guide other people? Maybe i just have to get over it and fake it 'til i make it. Just start acting like the paragon and eventually i'll become it.
The day-to-day is a struggle though. I feel like i can do the right things for 23.5 hours a day but i fuck up for 30 minutes by doing this or that and it throws everything into a tailspin. I also get down on myself too much.
Gotta learn to let go and let it flow.
