Notes & Quotes: One Hit Away by Jordan Barnes

The following are my favorite quotes from Jordan Barnes's One Hit Away: A Memoir of Recovery

  1. It was a realization that changed everything--if a lone wolf doesn't make the kill, he'll starve to death unless scraps are thrown his way.
  2. For too long, drug dependency has robbed me of the simple things in life that make it worth living, like deep or uninterrupted sleep.
  3. When he spots me shambling toward him, a smirk from Luiz says he knew I'd be back again. It's business. Bad business, but still business. We have a love-hate relationship that makes me resent the power he and every other dealer will forever reign over me.
  4. I have no problem taking whatever I wanted, whenever I want to feed my habit--the irony is that charity is hard to accept.
  5. The very nature of my addiction is a self-imposed imprisonment, one that requires me to return to my dealers like an animal to a watering hole .I have no control or independence regardless of how tough I act. No matter how I cut it, there is no free will here. Dependence has taken away any illusion of choice.
  6. I'm overwhelmed by my first actual step, taken on my own accord, to disassociate myself from the lifestyle I have long struggled to endure. Rising to the occasion is more than just empowering--it's authentic.
  7. When the desire to use instinctively crosses my mind, I have to remind myself that I'll ruin a good thing if I'm allowed to.
  8. Don't let your past poison your future. 
  9. There's no shortcut to any place worth going.
  10. I'm looking forward to developing and renewing my faith, joining my family again as a loving son and brother, and having healthy relationships built on trust. Most importantly, I'm looking forward to loving myself, which starts with facing my hurdles and tackling them one at a time.
  11. I realize that I can fight for something without ever raising a fist. I can fight for myself and my sobriety without letting others stand in my way or knock me off track. Bennett challenged me to lose my cool, and for a moment, I did. I have to work on that self-control and remember to rise above the bullshit as Mike so eloquently puts it.
  12. I respect his maturity in acknowledging that waving the white flag is actually a sign of strength. There is no shame in tapping out when you know that continuing will only wreak havoc.
  13. I saw enough progress in the mirror that I became a firm believer that if you do the right thing, you get the right results.
  14. Remember, if you're anything like me, your best thinking probably got you to where you are, so if you don't know what to do, don't do anything at all.