Smoke Free - Day 8

I'm not going to lie.  I don't want to do this anymore.

I never really wanted to quit smoking.  I started this challenge in hopes that i'd quit for 21 days and then reintroduce it back into my life.  The hope was that i'd ultimately cut down on smoking and make it more of an event than a regular occurrence.  A "drink and a cigar to unwind" kind of thing.  

Not being 100% committed makes accomplishing goals really hard.  (See the gluten free challenge)  It's easy to find ways to cheat or simply give up.

As i mentioned yesterday, is it really that big of a deal?  Doesn't everybody have their "thing?"  I can't help but think that addiction plagues almost everybody. We typically only think of vices such as smoking, drinking, or gambling but the reality is that people are addicted to many things.  Money, shopping, sex, power, being skinny, etc. etc...

Why isn't being addicted to money and power frowned upon?  It seems as though in our society people with those types of addictions are rewarded and put on the cover of Fortune magazine.

What does this all mean?  Fuck if i know.  I still haven't gone out and bought smokes but i really want to just say, "fuck it!"  Which is also the reason i feel like i should continue... And although i don't think it really applies to overcoming addiction, we're not supposed to should on ourselves!

Can you tell i'm a gemini?  Constant internal battles..